Have you ever known in your gut that you want to do something? It may even be really important to you.... yet, you just can't seem to start. Either you don't know where to start, or you feel overwhelmed by the steps you know you have to take to get the ball rolling.
This is where I was for over a year.
At the start of the pandemic, after I was laid off from (what I thought was) my dream job, I knew I wanted to start my own business. I knew I wanted to create a space for women who lost their mothers at a young age to come to heal. I felt so passionate and committed to the idea. It felt like my PURPOSE. Yet, I just couldn't start.
2020 was hard for all of us. Some of us lost our jobs, some of us changed to have to start working from home, and navigating what that all meant (sharing space with a partner, working while the kids were home, finding the motivation to do the work while at home, etc), and some of us met with the unthinkable; losing a loved one to Covid-19. To say the least, tensions were high, as was depression and anxiety. I fell victim to the latter. I suffered panic attacks, insomnia for almost a month, and a deep depression that all but bound me to my bed for months. Now, I'm not telling you this for your sympathy, or for you to pity me. I am telling you this to illistrate that life happens; we are humans here on earth, and we fall victim to human ailments. However, if something is MEANT for us, it will find us. Yes, we have free will, and if I had the ability to begin this journey when I first had the idea, I would be a bit ahead of where I am now. My divine timing found me just a few days ago. And it hit me like a ton of bricks. All of a sudden, I was getting clear messages telling me I was ready. And funny enough, these messages started with Tik Tok! I saw a random video on Facebook that I liked so much, I joined Tik Tok just to follow that account. And then, I started to see all these videos on spirituality and listening to our spirit guides/higher selves/Universal truth for answers, and what it felt like so you knew it was a message and not just a thought. And then the messages came flooding in, as did the motivation. I was given gifts I didn't know were gifts at first. An example is that one day I hurt my back at work. I had to take a sick day, called a doctor, and he ordered me to take 3 days off and then assess. I thought this was terrible, until i realized that this gave me the time to work on my business!
All of this is not to persuade you to do nothing and wait for the Universe to MAKE you do it. But, if you are really compelled to do something, and dont know where to start, dont beat yourself up. If it is meant for you, it is going to come to you one way or another.
Follow my journey, and I will share more posts on how to listen to your higher self, and how to differentiate between a message from your higher self, and a thought.
And never give up!! There is so much meant for you. Trust in that, and yourself, and you will see it flourish!
Love and light to you,
Jennifer
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